well, here I am at my first ever job - well, technically I'm interning, well it's actually called Vacation Training but you get the flow.
It's my second day at work and I'm bored. I have not been assigned to a task as yet and I feel like going up to somebody and asking to help them. Should I? but we were told to wait and I'm getting really bored. And I don't want to go on facebook cause that might be a little rude :/
So, here I am attending to my abandoned blog.
A lot has happened since my last update.
but I'll leave that for another blog.
Going back to my job, well there's really nothing much to be said about it except... I'm still waiting and I'm pretty sure a week from now I'll be regretting saying all this but yeah...
I've got half an hour till work ends and yeah...
You can definitely tell I'm bored,right?
Cause I can!
I want to help out but am afraid so what can I do? NOTHING!
well, I'm going to try do something.
till later...
I managed to go back home and watch the Tiger's in action. And even though we lost to Singapore (our arch rivals in everything) we played a good game and we are definitely rising from the ashes. Saying that itself, makes me proud to call myself a Malaysian and support our national football team. Being in the crowd with 87,000 people all with one common goal (minus the odd 200 Singaporeans) felt amazing. We were all there ignoring race, religion, gender to support Harimau Malaya. Our voices were sychronized in harmony as we cheered and cheered on our young players. There were moments which brought us to our feets, there were the nail bitting moments and in the end there was the long moment of sadness. Yes, we were disappointed but not in our players just the general disappointment when one loses something, I would say.
The crowd at Stadium Bukit Jalil
Our players in the Blue jerseys :)
We are all still behind this team of Harimau's as they march forward to face more challenges and as they slowly but surely rise up the ladder of success. We were once Asia's best and I believe we are on the right part to achieve that same glory again. This is one circumstance where history should repeat itself. As I type this sitting thousands of miles away from home, I wish the Harimau's all the best in the next few games as they take on Japan and other countries to qualify for the Olympics. I hate to quote Justin Bieber here but "Never Say Never". With the right amount of determination and hardwork, we may just see our national team on the London pitch. And that will be a moment that will go down in the history books.
Speaking of another Harimau Malaya, our national and world No.1 badminton player, Lee Chong Wei. He is definitely at the peak of his game and I truely hope it lasts for the Olympics. He is one of our only hopes for that prized gold medal.
The one, the only LEE CHONG WEI!
And yes, I did stream it online as I watched him fight hard against Lin Dan for the coveted World Badminton Championship title. He may have lost, yet again and cockily enough Lin Dan may have ripped off his shirt again but then, you can't win everything in life and to Datuk Lee Chong Wei I want to say CONGRATULATIONS for all the tremendous achievement you have done. Thank you for flying the Malaysian flag high and hopefully next year it will be you who humbly defeats an arrogrant Lin Dan for the gold medal at the Olympics!
Also, to Nicol David, girl, my mother wants you as a daughter. You are a true role model and it's a shame squash isn't as famous as tennis. Nevertheless, you are awesome at what you do with an incredible winning streak that makes everybody else envy you. Keep up the good work, Datuk and hopefully I'll see you in action LIVE one day.
My fingers are really itchy. I want to do something but I don't know what. I know I should be studying now but I can't be bothered. I want to do something interest but can't find anything interesting to do. STORY OF MY LIFE,EH? I actually would spend my time watching YouTube videos but then my internet megabytes would be eaten like crazy and then I've got to go spend money on buying more. I've had my fair share of videos for today, I reckon so here I am updating my blog.
Well, what has happened in my life that's super interesting or exciting? WELL...
*drumroll*
NOTHING.NIL.NADA.
Yes, that's right. That's how boring my life is. I've been super busy with university lately. So many assignments, it's crazy and here I thought I could actually get a job this semester. There goes my dream to earn extra pocket money :(
Besides assignments, I've also decided being the smart-ass I am at times, to join a law competition.
It was well...
a) an experience
b) still going on
c) We're hoping to win at least one round ;)
Well, so I mooted for the first time ever in my life and it was fun. Literally, seconds before walking up to the lantern, I felt my heart pumping blood at like gazillion tonnes per second and I could feel it wanting to jump out of my rib cage. But as soon as I stood at the lantern, addressed the court and started my submission - it all went a way and I zoned all my energy into my speech. Now, that my turn is over, it was fun looking back. I expected to cry at the first question the judge threw at me, but I didn't and I felt like I handled myself very well. I think and even the judges said I did pretty well. So, YAY ME!
Speaking of YAY ME, is it true that Brenda Song is pregnant with Trace Cyrus kid? WTH? WTF? I never curse but this might deserve it. Like WHAT?! And of all people with him?
Seriously, there goes my childhood.
Well, I'm signing off now...
Till next time, I'M STILL VERY MUCH IN LOVE WITH JLS!
never forget to smile people, I'm dead serious. Teehee!
Oh, yes they definitely make me wanna....do so many things but mostly just SMILE at the mere mention of their name, they've cast a spell on me and have definitly got me hooked just like their millions of their other fans. It's so sad that they're not famous back home or even here. I wish they were. But I'm slowly but surely turning my friends into JLSters, I'm very proud of my accomplishments there. teehee.
So, watching their new video over & over again, which has me hooked mainly because of Aston shirtlessness, I wanted to relish at their first attempts of making it big, yes their X-factor audition and boy, they've come along way. And for your pleasure & also in the hope that I'll change you into a JLSter, here is that video of them way back then - which was like only 3 years ago, but they all look so much younger for some reason. Fame has somehow aged them but they still look SO FIT so who cares?!
LOLing at their introduction and their reactions when Simon says that was terrific....
Oh, boys even back then they kinda saw the stars that you'll could be and you proved them right. I feel so proud, it's so weird considering back then I didn't even now they existed. But now, they're all I talk about. Weird.
Speaking of now, here's their latest NO.1 single, SHE MAKES ME WANNA!!!
How awesome is the video? VERY>>>
So, yes JLS have achieved greatness and have come a long way and now if only they decide to do a world tour so I can watch them live, it would be awesome.
So, JLS if by any chance you are reading this, please please do a world tour or at least tour Asia or Australia or both would be great. Thank you xx :)
Also, apparently TW b*tched about JLS calling them light drinkers ( I'd take that as a compliment, but yeah) etc... How very rude of the TW boys, seriously. Can't you play nice & be grateful for your single going to No.1 and now let JLS bask in their limelight? But then again, it could just be the tabloids talking crap, so we dont really know, somebody has to ask them theirselves and post the response on YouTube.
well, till then I'll still be here and there, stalking JLS ;) ( I really shouldn't admit that out loud)
I'm going back home in T-minus 72 hours. I'm so excited I can't seem to wipe this smirk of my face. My exams literally ended about 6 hours ago and from then on out, I have found it very difficult to STOP SMILING. I never knew going back home would be this exciting. Anyway, the current theme song to my life is
Yes, It's COMING HOME.
Cause I'm coming home, coming home, tell the world I'm coming home :) And I can finally say I BALIK KAMPUNG. Though, I won't be at home for a long time, it will still be good to see my family and friends, eat the mouth watering delicacies of home and enjoy the warm weather.
Speaking of weather, it has been raining and raining here in Sydney.
I'm like dude, at least SNOW then all the chilliness I have to endure will be worth it. TEEHEE...
Speaking of TEEHEE(I like how my train of thoughts are working today -all over the place),how awesome is NICE GUYS? Haven't heard it? You should have a listen to it NOW! cause after some time it is still the NO.1 COMEDY SONG on iTunes :)
I am a proud owner of this song and cannot help but replay it over and over again. That's how awesome it is and the music video is so sweet.
Speaking of music videos, has anyone seen The Wanted's GLAD YOU CAME video? I can only express it using one word : DIFFERENT. It looked like a really cool movie trailer and I must say hats off to the director for an awesome video but my question is; IS IT REALLY TW STYLE? Are they trying to gain a larger number of followers? In the same time, will they lose some of their old ones? I hardly doubt that will happen, but the video is in my honest opinion a little too...forward, maybe? I'm sure they have screaming young fans who as I type this will be watching that video and hmm...let's just say are they old enough to be watching stuff like that?
I also have to say that even though I love Jay; he looked absolutely awkward in the video. Tom looked like he was in his element. Speaking of Tom Parker, he is taken. Yup, that's right, he has a girlfriend. I'm sure hearts were broken but suprisingly mine wasn't.
Well, this has just been random ramblings... Stay tuned for more next time only on GIRL ABROAD...teehee
"What do you mean he does not have a duty of care?" "Yes, Your Honour but we would like to submit..." Yesterday night to be described in one word was AWESOME, wait no, it was MIND-BLOWING!Yes, I visited a courthouse for the first time in my life and just to clear it up I did not do anything illegal. I was there as a spectator for a Grand Finals Competition held by my university Law Society. It was incredible. It was held in the SUPREME COURT and actual Supreme Court Judges were presiding over the matter. It was fantastic. Yes, I'm going to be using a lot of powerful adjectives. By the way, judges in real life are just as sarcastic and funny as they are on TV. It was so much fun and the two parties( team of contestants) were very, very good. I would have broken down and cried if I were them being under fire from the moment you open your mouth. Visiting a court house was everything I imagined and more. The excitement I had before hand was not let down and the experience definitely met my expectations and maybe even surpassed them. And walking through the streets in the city with friends at night after the rain was beautiful. I quote my friend when she said that the 'rain made the ground all sparkly' which it did and the lights that lit up the streets and the tall buildings surrounding us made me feel like part of a movie. It was a fun experience and one that I'll definitely being doing again soon. Hopefully, next year it'll be me saying "Your Honour" and "May it please the court". Yes, I might as well get early practice if I want my dreams to come true.
So, that was my Wednesday night for me. And it was damn good one at that. I might have missed the Criminal Minds new episode (which I was dying to see) but it was all worth it.
Now, for me to go back to studying. ARGHHH...........................
If I become a princess ( because I'll be marrying Prince Harry), why do I need to study for?
OKAY, THAT'S A STUPID QUESTION, IGNORE IT.
Education is the most powerful weapon which you can use to change the world
-Nelson Mandela-
THAT'S WHY! And I definitely want to change the world even if it is going to have to be one fraction of a person at a time
Night, peeps :) or morning or afternoon or evening wherever you're from or whenever you're reading this.
Monday 23 May 2011
I'm trying so hard and yet I fail. I mean WHAT THE HELL? This frustrates me like crazy. I'm doing everything by the book and then when the results pop-up, it shows me a mark that I can only call by one word, DISGRACEFUL. It's not like I'm failing university, far from it, but arghhhhhh...this is so frustrating.
In other news, I survived the so-called end of the world, so I must be one of those 'bad' people. LOL. Talking about the end of the world, I have a feeling(which I pray to God is wrong) that the world could end in 2012. Why? Have you looked around you and realised the amount of disasters that have been occuring? From the tornadoes to the Tsunamis, the list does not seem to want to end this year and we are not even through the first 6 months. And then the killing of Osama Bin Laden, could Al-Qaeda's payback attack be the end of us? We never know and all I can do is sit here eating my yoghurt and question it. From man-made disaster to natural disasters, everything seems to be turning on us including Mother Nature. Probably saw that coming what with us wasting water, making a hole in the ozone layer.... If it really is the end of the world in 2012, I wish someone would tell me and be like 100% sure. Cause then instead of studying my face off and getting disappointing results I would be travelling the world. I would want to see the 7 wonders of the world, watch a game at Old Trafford, meet the Germany Football Team ( cause I simply LOVE them) and the list goes on. I wouldn't want to waste my time studying for a degree,okay actually 2 degrees, if I'm never going to get a chance to use them. Say what?! Talk about a waste of time. I would also like to spend time with my family and friends instead of millions of miles away from them(exaggeration, but you get the idea)
And now for me to get back to studying as my first ever finals at university is just and I mean JUST around the corner. Wish me luck!
To leave this post on a happier note, I leave you with a photo of an incredible being.
haha,YES it is ASTON MERRYGOLD. what can I say, he makes me smile :)
TGIM! Yes, Thank God It's Monday cause this means I now have an extra whole week to study for my exams. YIPEE!!! ( I sound like a nerd, but desperate times call for desperate measures)
Yes, he is dead. And yes, according to the American government from the words of their very first African American President Barack Obama, OSAMA BIN LADEN has been confirmed dead. Pretty historical I would say. The mastermind, or at least what they say,he was the mastermind (nobody may ever know for sure except maybe the governments of some countries), of the destructive 9/11 that shocked the world and united America as they grieved for the lost of many heroic lives. The fight against this has been long and hard. Many more lives have been lost yet many more lives have also maybe been saved. Finally, even though this is not the end, it is a certain closure for the families that lost their loved ones. Justice has maybe been finally served...
But then again, I cannot help but wonder just like the human mind is it really the death of the Osama (the most twittered at the moment). Or could this be some kind of conspiracy theory and might just be somebody else's body instead of Osama's? I cannot help but ponder over this issue. Just like the theories that Micheal Jackson is not dead and the 9/11 disaster was really the brainchild of the Americans. Who knows,right?
It took them a decade to find him. It was 2001 and now its 2011. A long decade...
FUN FACTS : The number one trending thing on Yahoo at the moment is OSAMA. Can you guess the 2nd thing?
It's PIPPA MIDDLETON. Yup, that girl is an overnight internet session. Unbelievable. And yes, I would like to correct my earlier blogpost that she is not engaged yet but rumoured to be soon engaged. But then some question with her now high popularity will she want to settle down or become rich and famous with that incredibly awesome figure?
Well, all I know is I'm still waiting for my marriage to Prince Harry ;) haha...
See, I've travelled all around the world now but no where ever comes close to home.
THE ROYAL WEDDING!!!
How amazing was that? It was everything it hyped up to be. I was in near tears when I saw Kate, oops, I mean Princess Catherine in that lovely wedding dress walking down the aisle. The commentator was saying something along the lines that she walks in a commoner, just another you or me and walks out a royalty. How freaking amazing is that? CINDERELLA. It's exactly like that fairytale. Every girl's dream to marry a prince and she's done that. She made it possible for us to believe in that dream. Speaking of her dress, I thought is was simply stunning. It was so simply yet she looked so elegant. I'm also very impressed by the fact that she managed to keep it under wraps as to who the designer was. So may say it was too simply for a royal wedding but in the end I suppose it does not really matter. She looked beautiful like how every bride should look and feel on her wedding day. Moving on to her sister, Pippa, how fantastic did she look? I can say that she must have stole some of the attention of Kate. She looked hot! Unfortunately, for the male population, she is already engaged and some may even say it's too bad for Prince Harry as well who seemed to be or at least from what has been said to be getting along with her. LOL. Also, I would like to mention how freaking awesome the Queen is to be 85 AND STILL WALKING IN HEELS. I take my hat off to her for that. Speaking of hats, I cannot believe the amount of fancy hats I've seen. I don't get the British fascination for these kinds of hats.
Also, how good looking is Prince Harry - the most eligible royal bachelor in the UK. Plus, he is not even balding like Prince William. So, girls out there, just to note I'm marrying Prince Harry. Sorry to his on and off girlfriend, Chelsy but yeah, I'm going to be his bride *super smiley face* The kiss on the balcony was sweet and part of tradition. I wonder if the next royal couple would have to kiss three times since Charles and Diana did it once and now Kate and William twice. Hmm? Maybe I'll be kissing Harry three times then in front of thousands. haha.
Well, that about sums up the royal wedding from my point of view. Oh, wait...can you imagine how proud Kate's father must have been when he was giving away his daughter to the future King of England? That was amazing and that was also making me tear up.
Also, the amount of celebration that was going on around the world as the people gathered in stadiums, pubs and houses to watch the live telecast of the royal wedding? That was fantastic!
That's all from me. Until my royal wedding, TTFN!
ps: HOW CUTE WAS THE LITTLE BRIDESMAID WHEN SHE WAS AT THE BALCONY COVERING HER EARS? CAN YOU SAY ADORABLE? MY LITTLE NIECES AND NEPHEWS DO THAT ALL THE TIME WHEN AROUND LOUD NOISE! THAT IS A MOMENT GOING DOWN IN HISTORY BOOKS!
He's got me hooked and I hate him for that. I absolutely hate him for that and yet at the same time I love him more than my heart can tell.Why? Why do you have to do this to me? Gosh, I do sound scary. Trust me, this is nothing like me at all. Just that when your overseas, alone with nothing much to do and ALOT of time in your hands and the availability of 24/7 internet service, it could make you a little crazy or even turn you into a stalker.Not that I am but at the rate I'm going, I might just become one. I shudder at that thought. I also think how sad my life is that he doesn't know I exist. And the worst part is I might never get to see him in person.We will be forever miles and miles away, me just admiring him through a little invention called the internet.
Yes, I'm talking about ASTON MERRYGOLD.
My craze for The Wanted has somehow died and now I'm into JLS and I've a feeling it won't die. I love their songs and their personality. Wait. Did I not just say the same thing about TW? Gosh, I have to get a life. Pronto!
Anyway, since I have nothing else to do, I did this for the blue boy in JLS.
Till then,
I'll race you to the sun before the morning comes...
can someone please explain to me what the JLS oath means? I'm a new fan, a new crazy fan and I suppose I would not mind taking that oath ;)
I think this is the oath but if someone could explain it to me, I would be grateful.
I Took The JLS Oath and Im Gunna Stick It Out ‘Till The End’
The Ninjas with the Swagger, The Boys with the Swing, We’re forever in Love Doing our JLS Thing!
so hot! so hot! So sexy!AND IF ONLY THEY KNEW I EXISTED, THOUSANDS AND THOUSANDS A MILES AWAY FROM THEM BUT I STILL DO EXIST JUST NOT IN THEIR EYES. Damn, do I sound depressed. I'm not. But this has got me thinking. Does anyone find it weird about how we obsess over a certain celebrity or in my case boybands like JLS and THE WANTED...we,ahem,I, know nearly everything about them and yet they have no clue that I exist. Isn't that sad? it's like we spend numerous hours over the internet, stalking them, going to concerts screaming their names in hope they may at least look in our direction...I find it kinda pathetic and yet here I am... well, i guess that's the price you pay for crushing on a celebrity. so here's what I think. Instead of waiting for the actualASTON MERRYGOLD ( who is freaking hot!) or JAY MCGUINNESS ( who melts my heart),I think we should look around us cause we might find our own versions of Jay or Aston ( who might never measure up to the real ones in looks or stuff ) but can and definitely will fill the vacancy in your hearts:) see what i did that? Smart, eh? haha...
well, i should probably sign off here. Take a look around girls, you never know who might catch your eye ;) and for all you know it might actually be the REAL Aston or Jay... dreams do come true.
Sweet dreams, everyone!In all honesty, it sounds quite cool. the ninjas with the swaggers, haha....
NO, not the song, just how I'm feeling right now. Moving into a house full of strangers is something a lot of people or at least those that head to university (far away from home) find themselves doing, as did I. My first impression was not what I had preconceived. I always thought living in a house with uni mates was going to be fun and everybody would be super friendly and you would become best friends with the people you were living with. I was wrong,big time! But then I got to know my housemates and I was like "oh, they are actually quite nice and since I was the youngest they were kinda helpful". I considered myself super lucky to be housed with cool people who talked to me more than just for out of courtesy. Then, I got to know them a little better and realised that their way of living was not like mine. They saw life slightly differently from me. But they were still nice. They called me to hang out with them ( which I thought was cool) and by hanging out with them I even managed to play the guitar. Okay, so by playing the guitar I just mean strumming a few chords on it but that was like life changing for me. I had never touched a guitar before so I found it like some loser, super cool. I even joked with my friends back home that 'the world should watch out cause I now want to become a superstar'. But of course, in front of my housemates, I acted all cool. So, now I'm starting to realise that we don't have the same outlooks on life. And I know to whoever is reading this I must sound like a crazy person cause nobody would care or it shouldn't be a big deal that people have different characteristics in life. We are all supposed to deal with diversity! And I pretty much deal with diversity really well especially since I come from a country where we praise diversity.
But I somehow feel I don't fit in with them, like an intruder who stepped into their life. So, here is the part where I pose the question should I stay or should I go?
I have also come to realise that living in a house with different people is hard and it makes you sometimes wish you had your own place or was living with your family. Life would be less complicated then for me at the very least. But I of course know of people who cannot wait to leave home but I suppose I have always been a home girl, a mummy and daddy's girl. I'm not homesick but maybe I just miss being pampered. Or maybe I'm just lazy...maybe i feel like I want my own freedom to dance around the kitchen while cooking not looking over my back every 5 minutes to wonder who is also downstairs or who is coming in the front door.
But, hey this is life and this is part of growing up and living abroad. I suppose I have always asked for this life and so,here I am complaining about it. I blame it on human nature for never being happy with what we have ;) So, you know what I do when I'm depressed ( I suppose I'm over exaggerating here), I watch YouTube. Vloggers are hilarious ( charlieissocoollike, nerimon, italktosnakes, nigahiga, communitychannel ) and also clips on my favourite celebrities like ahem...THE WANTED ( I warned you I will be talking about them alot) and also another British boy band that I have recently discovered, JLS ( who are incredibly awesome and super fit) *smiley face* and my mood turns rightside up. Love.
TW...a boy band...of beautiful people...well,technically 5 fit guys...my recent disovery(well,actually my sister's) has got me head over heels for them. I never pegged myself for the crazy,stalkerish fan ( I left that to my sister) of anything and yet, here I'll admit that I am gugugaga for these 5 lads. It's scary how intrigued I am about them. Of course, I am not anything close to their biggest fan but for me this is still a scary move. I constantly find myself watching them on youtube or twitter. Why? What is so special about the newest hot British boyband, THE WANTED? Well, I myself have no idea. All I can say is that they have safely got me under their spell. If you don't know who THE WANTED are I won't tell you, you're living under a shell cause you most probably are not. So, here are some facts on my favourite boyband(dare I say,ever).
THE WANTED consists of five boys from Britain and Ireland.
From left : JAY, SIVA, NATHAN, TOM and MAX.
So, to all those still interested in knowing more about this fab boyband, here is some information of them from one of my favourites website, WIKIPEDIA.
The Wanted are a British-Irish pop boy band based in London. The group comprises Max George, Siva Kaneswaran, Jay McGuiness, Tom Parker and Nathan Sykes. The band's debut single "All Time Low" reached number 1 on the UK Singles Chart in August 2010. Their debut studio album The Wanted was released on 25 October 2010 and charted at number 4 in the UK.
Still want to know more? Well, even if you don't here are more facts...
TOM PARKER...tall,dark and handsome
DOB: 4 August 1988 (do the math to find out how old he is)
PS: he is also the oldest member in the band.
From: Bolton
Learnt to play the guitar at 16 years of age
Is also smart cause he went to Manchester Metropolitan University and studied Geography.
JAY MCGUINESS... super funny and HOT!
my personal favourite out of the lot
DOB : 24 July 1990
From : Nottinghamshire
(I spent a year of my life there, we could have crossed parts but I would have never known *sad face*)
Best dancer of the group
MAX GEORGE... bald yet awesome...teehee...
From: Manchester
Wanted to become a football player
Manchester City fan
Has posed nude for the cover a magazine
For your eyes, here is a picture...
NATHAN SYKES...the baby of the group
DOB: 18 April 1993 ( Even, I'm older than him)
From : London, then Gloucester
Started singing at 6 years of age
Won a "Britney Spears's Karaoke Kriminals" competition (where he actually met Britney, how cool?)
SIVA KANESWARAN...the pouter
DOB: 16 November 1988
From : Ireland
Mixed parentage of Sri Lankan Tamil and Irish
Started modelling at the age of 16
( I could be related to him, could be)
Well, there's a little information about the members of the band. Together, they make up one crazy bunch of people and actually remind me of my own family members.
To get to know them better, follow them on twitter, facebook etc...
Here's a little insight on the lives of the boys. I found this video of them to be hilarious.
They've got this little thing on youtube called WANTED WEDNESDAYS which bascially let's you inside their lives which are quite cool.
This is the song they did for COMIC RELIEF 2011 called Gold Forever...
Well, since I am obsessed with them, I am warning you far in advance that a lot of my blog posts might be about them or at least mention them.So yes, beware...
I can't think of anything else I want to say about them... so for now,
I have always loved to write and so here I am expressing my thoughts to the world.What do people write in their first blog post? Well, I'm going to let you into my life, a little at a time.Shy, petite and scared just begin to describe my personality for those who don't know who I am. My friends may say otherwise. Truely, I want to be outgoing, not afraid tosay yes to something unknown and not afraid to ask a guy out. But that is just the 'wants'. The 'I am's ' are somewhat different.I can speak if given the opportunity but rarely ever try to make that opportunity for myself. I love to try new things but the inner me is sometimes afraid of the outcome.I'm legal in the eyes of the law however do not or rather have not tried the partying scene. I hate drinking,btw.Before I bore you with my boring characteristics, I should go but not to worry if you so far enjoy reading my blog another post is coming up soon.
'Keep on smiling, the world won't seem like such a gloomy place then'
